I am really curious now. If you are comfortable, can you inform us what your handicap is called?
Twice exceptional individuals very often have seemingly "average" performance outcomes and the degree to which it tortures them to just achieve "average" goes largely unnoticed by people who presume them to have an excess of ego for thinking they deserve something better in life.
No, but when someone alludes to something without saying what it is, curiosity is aroused in people.