Author here, half an adult i'd say. It was meant to be a stream of consciousness unloading exercise, my first one at that. I have no idea why people are upvoting it.
It keeps coming back to "what's the point of what I'm doing?" and I've personally yet to find any sort of answer that speaks to any sort of higher truth than "I'm here, now what?"
https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Ecclesiastes+1-...
So basically, I upvoted because I identify with what you wrote.