Tell HN: want to make a movie, but got no script (metaphorically)
I'm kinda stuck with my life, my professional career and my entrepreneur ambitions. I was hoping that some people on HN have gone through this successfully and could give me a few practical advices.
My problem is that I'm only excited working for myself. No amount of money can get me excited and motivated enough to work on someone else's project, no matter how cool or challenging it is. The reason is that I see no future in it. I want to make a lot of money and be wealthy, while working for someone else always has the limit. The problem is not that I don't have the money to make a living while working on my own project - I could come up with something or I would even combine working for someone and my startup. The problem is that I don't have any idea I personally believe in. Last year I've implemented a few (didn't take off) and filtered over 50 ideas, I guess, and this has just left me really empty. What I learned is that you need to have enough motivation to get through the toughest times. I don't mind working really hard, but I couldn't come up with any idea that I loved enough to make such a commitment.
As a result, I'm not actually that skilled, because I don't have enough practice. I'm not excited by the code itself, I'm excited by the promise of selling the product or the project, by the promise of welfare and respect. Only when I have this promise, I become excited writing the actual code and solving difficult problems.
To summ this up, it feels like I want to make a movie whatever it takes and I'm trying to shoot the scenes having no script at all.
Additionally I live outside US which makes it harder to do something for US market (not excited with the local one). On the other hand, moving to US to work for some company also makes no sense to me, because H-1B visas are basically a temporary ticket for you and most companies won't help you settle in US and apply for a Green Card. And then again, you work for someone with no promise of getting a reward that you really want.
Having said all this, to me it feels like a really complicated puzzle. I'm not whining, really. I'm just slightly depressed, but still very willing to solve it. So I would love to hear your thoughts, specifically, what would you do?