I have written down some of the inserted thoughts I heard. They are from a couple years ago.
I'm a member of Intervoice on Facebook. I take Perphenazine, and see a Psychiatrist every 6 months.
"i'm checking up on you every so often" "don't write that down" "you're lost in your own little world up here"
I don't really understand by what your voices are different from what I simply call my thoughts. I mean I also hear random thoughts. Just the same kind of thoughts that you wrote down. Often it's a dialog or chatter from multiple different voices. They are different in what they say. Isn't that normal? Do other people have a mute inner voice?
How are your voices different from your thoughts?
This is a popular illusion because many people report finding it inescapably like hearing it in his voice.
It is not involutary like the OP but it is hard to shake once seen.
Is there any explanation for what this says about my brain?
"A couple years ago I was reading Incognito where they mention Pink Floyd’s lyrics “There’s someone in my head but it’s not me”. Later that night I was lying in bed trying to go to sleep when I thought “Roger Waters” At the time I didn’t know who he was but I found his Wikipedia page."
I read your linked blog and honestly, if that's yours, I feel compelled to reach out to you.
The behavior you've documented (helpfully, for both yourself and others) is textbook schizophrenia.
The paranoia, the the voices, the "I could control what showed up on tv" all fits the bill for mental illness.
You have to learn to stop trusting your own head and document with outside sources. In the TV case, film yourself on your phone. Say what's going to show up, then wait for it. Watch it. See if you "remember" being able to control it. Then watch the video back later, then realize nothing you said actually was right.
You've got to use the wonderful technological tools available to you to fight this, and included a trusted healthcare professional.
I'm reaching out in hopes that this helps you, not trying to troll/insult at all. There's no shame in what's happening to you.
The only shame is that science doesn't understand the brain well enough yet to detect/heal these things before they impact our lives.
Why Can't People in Mental Hospitals Use Cell Phones?
I would have liked to record the TV in a mental hospital when I was involuntarily committed years ago using my iPhone, but it was taken away from me without a jury trial and without being allowed to use my own lawyer.
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