When I was young joining the army in my country was an easy decision, the money was good and it was a safe job. Recruiters would tell you that you could make an impact on the world and make it a better place for everyone while making enough money to easily fund your kids future and live a good life if you do the job long enough and are willing to put blood, sweat, and tears in.
But within a few years, I realized that what I did had no impact whatsoever, and the money was only good if you went home in one piece or alive at all.So I quit and specialized in tracking down war criminals in the private sector.
It is a long way before you see some of these people in front of the International Criminal Court for example. Many don't even make it there.
You ask how I could continue the work I did?
I had the chance to talk to these people sometimes for an hour sometimes for days before handing them over and one question I always asked was "What do you think would have been necessary to keep you from doing what you did?" and most of the answers boiled down to "nothing, besides a bullet maybe".
And that is exactly the reason why people like me are necessary. You can't sit down at a table with these guys and talk them out of it. There is real evil in this world. And these people are the living proof.
They think they are invincible and above the law and when you see how long it takes to bring these people to justice you begin to understand why they think that way.
Now I'm retired. So no, I am pretty sure the cause of my death will be natural some day.
As far as I'm concerned I don't need to write a book about what or how I did what I did. And outside those trials, my name will never be mentioned anywhere.
But the families of all the people I worked with that died and all the families and mothers that suffered by losing their sons and daughters and husbands because of the war crimes that person ordered will get a little bit of peace, knowing that no matter how rich or powerful you are there are people coming for you willing to give their lives so you rot in jail for what you did.