Uncovering depression's web in the brain
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"Clinical" depression is not depression that is caused by chemistry rather than psychology. We have no idea whose depression is caused by what, really, and chemistry/psychology probably isn't a meaningful distinction to make in this context.
As far as I know there is no expert consensus on whether depression and Depression are different shades of the same thing or qualitatively different.
'Depression is a chemical imbalance', as a model, is about on par with 'the internet is a series of tubes'. It's not flat out wrong, but it's so oversimplified as to be pretty useless for fixing or making predictions about the system.
In my own case, certain things in my life were just not right (which I didn't realise at the time), and I didn't realise at the time how much they were affecting me. However once I changed those things, the depression cleared up completely.
YMMV.
The gaslighting comment is all too real. I wonder what's wrong with me because I don't feel contented. I feel like a fake all the time and then I feel like a fake for feeling like one. It's madness. Somehow I'm still able to carry on, but it's not fun.
The best therapist I ever had was an older man from upstate NY who practiced zen buddhism. He was technically a psychiatrist I suppose but we had incredible talk sessions and he helped me manage it during the worst episodes (first years of college), because we mostly just talked about poetry or writing or anything but normal therapy territory. I'm not sure where he is at now but I would like to find something similar to that. But to be honest I'm pretty burnt out on therapy and my mood swings make it hard to build a consistent rapport with most practitioners. Also therapy is INCREDIBLY expensive and many don't take insurance. It feels screwy.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_psychotherapies
Cognitive behavioural therapy is one of the well known ones and to my understanding tends to focus on concrete patterns of behaviour rather than digging out some deficit in parental relationships https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cognitive_behavioral_therapy
Totally amateur here but unfortunately a bit familiar of depression. What you described sounds like a familiar pattern and CBT was helpfull in that.
I dunno, I just don't feel anything. Good things, bad things - it's all "OK. Next."
But my general mood is leaning towards negative.
Serotonin is associated with dominance and social status in animals. If you get "beat down like a minion" you are very likely to have your serotonin system get in bad shape.
Ka-ching!
A drug company CEO just bought another yacht.
I wonder if the people here who support the pathologising of unhappiness support the mass drugging of school children afflicted by "ADHD". Look at how France deals with such issues and you see there are other ways.
Pills for the brain, mass incarceration, gun culture and junk food - things America fails at and leaves the rest of the world shaking its head in amazement.
Take ADHD for example: A child won't sit still in class, is constantly distracted, and performs poorly at school work. Let's use occam's razor to figure out what's going on here. Was this child born with a rare neurological disorder causing an imbalance in monoamine neurotransmitters? Possibly... Or maybe was the real cause is this: a lack of exercise, a poor diet that includes lots of sugars and unnecessary carbohydrates, lack of socialization outside of the school context. The list goes on and on. I really believe that if you do your due diligence in ensuring your diet, health, social life, and other important factors are all in a good state, these conditions magically disappear. Sure, the kid might have low levels of dopamine because of their suboptimal lifestyle. But there are ways to fix the problem without shoving NDRIs/amphetamines down their throat: change their routine, their diet, their life.
I'm not saying that ADHD doesn't exist, I'm just saying the true percentage of ADHD cases is probably a much lower (see France) than what's purported in the US.
But in the end, it's easier to pop a pill than change you or your child's lifestyle. Plus the pharmaceutical companies make a buck, and tell you what you need to hear to believe that stimulants are the only option for treatment. Sometimes they might be a good option to jumpstart the process of digging yourself out of depression (SSRIs in this case) but I don't think that the chronic administration of drugs is healthy and optimal in the long run. There are better solutions out there.
(P.S. Obviously I'm not stating any of this as fact. It's just what makes sense to me after dealing with, and evaluating my own anxiety and depression.)