Approching 30...What should I do?
If this isnt a plea for help, I dont know what is!
I am hitting 30 next month. I am a qualified CS in UK on $65K+ Salary. For the last 5 years I have worked in 2 start-ups and 1 large telco in the UK. I have worked with outsourced developement teams in the 2 start-ups and I know how to do this effectively. Myself, I am a telcoms/Network Engineer with knowledge of VoIP systems and Cisco. I can fudge some php and basic Java (uni days), but am in no way a qualified programmer. I have longed to start something of my own up and being an idea's person, have kept a scrapbook of idea's for over 10 years. Most people probably find me eccentric, usually looking at problems with the world and trying to find solutions. I like inventing new ways to do old stuff, with little resources and no experiance, which most people find crazy, which I sometimes agree is, bacause most idea's never materialise!
Here's my problem (Aside from hitting 30 ofcourse), I can not completely understand the concepts of low level programming languages and be able to implement them e.g. C++ Pointers, polymorphism etc. Further more, I seem to have a great dificulty understanding MVC and therefore OO programming with PHP seems out of my league although I give most things functional in PHP a good shot. My second problem is I find it impossible to read books on programming and can not find the motivation to do this.
I have just started my first online SaaS using outsourced teams etc. Is this the right way to go? Anyone else in my position? What more can I do to motivate myself and further how do I program so I dont have pay others?
Am I going to make it? Please help me