Ask HN: Completely lost interest in CS in college ,any way to get back?
But the system in my country is kinda rigged and forces freshman year students to take up general sciences like math,physics,engineering drawing,chemistry. I was unable to code the first year due to this, i did do some C embedded stuff but that was way to lame. By the time i hit second year i had lost all of my passion the only thing i wanted to do was study whatever that was thrown in front of me and have sex.
I lost myself somewhere along the way,in my third semester of Comp sci engineering i simply studied all of the 4 computer subjects like data structures,basic programming which i already knew in Hs like a zombie would scored some marks and literally did nothing,got involved with multiple other vices and kept ignoring what i liked since i never felt like it.
Only in my fourth semester did i realize what i had been missing but now the problem is i cant seem to understand what i used to easily and what came to me naturally,even though i worked on some exciting small projects i can't feel the passion i had before. I have been reading some OS books and i feel dumb as a nut,this stuff used to excite me before,i used to easily understand this.
i ended up getting a management intern at a tech firm since i thought i have reached the end of my programming career. Didn't really like it,and i do want to get back to development,that is what i want to do but i feel dumb,really dumb.
I was the only freshman in my univ to win a inter-college hackathon in my freshman year,i cant even seem to recognise that person anymore.