For all the episodes where he is having a ball, it definitely paints a contrast, and a tragic one at that.

His return to Borneo was rather profound, for me. He seemed to be battling demons, be it substance or other.

If you don't know what to say, don't ask "What happened?" - that focuses on the problem. Say "Are you OK?" If they trust you, they'll open up.

Suicide is shut down.

Moving country is reboot.

There is a reboot option.

If life doesn't work out elsewhere, I might try to become a monk first, before trying to end my own life. Or taking dangerous occupations, such as war zone journalism. There's nothing else to fear when death is no longer a threat. I haven't yet tried all those alternatives, so I'll do that first before making a permanent decision. I'd still rather commit suicide than be forced to murder someone else though (e.g. military service), so I hope that no government forces weapons into my hands.

Stay strong brothers. You are useful and wanted.