Am I “banned” from Google or Should I “ban” Google?
Eww, right? "Why would you do that yourself?" Well, My girlfriend is there I always wanted to be with her, as we did at graduate school. And I wanted to be or as "good" as her.
The first two times were myself to blame: not enough time practicing the quizzes and bad timing. The third time recruiter contacted me again, I spent months to go over fundamentals/algo/coding systemically. The feedback turned out to be generally good (two strong hires), but with a mix that my recruiter revealed that my second interviewer, who also delayed my process by two weeks, he gave me the no hire and his feedback was I "needed a lot of hints"?! where he was spending a lot of time asking my experience and leaving me 15 minutes doing the quiz and coding. Worse, he did not give me the opportunity to fix my code the moment I wrote it out! Unfair! While I could not afford to lose the "last" opportunity, but someone like him just destroyed everything! I got rejected by the hiring committee, even though my team match was successful!
My girlfriend told me your career is not about stupid google, nor about her. I totally agree with him. However, I felt confused and defeated. I searched online that google is very good at using statistics to judge candidates. So the one No hire is not the only reason, but is it the hiring committee can see all the previous performance before that made the conclusion I was weak, not worth to hire, no matter how many strong hires or recommendation of its own googler? Of course, they don’t cares about how hard you worked. Once a loser, loser forever, in their eyes?
The recruiter encouraged me to try in the future. But I think I might have been put in their blacklist or something. I still felt great shame to even ask the question: If the recruiter contacted me again, should I try it one more time? or I should really ban google myself? Because the next time they will still see me as a loser?