As a naive young person, I hoped that a metal illness was just that, an illness that can be cured.
After discovering mine, the curtain was pulled back, revealing the 'trick' all along behind the illusion of cure, was just suppression. Bacteria are killed, sometimes Viruses too. But thoughts, and feelings cannot be cured or killed, they must be suppressed.
For 'Free Will', one should be free to control one's will.
I can't pass through doors in the first try, or the 20th, sometimes when I'm by myself.
Some people cower right before a fight they've prepared for, for months, they knew fight day was coming.
Anger kills people, people 'see red'.
If these thoughts and feelings are your will, hopefully we find out that they're free, not you.