Weirdly I seem to do quite well in the casino and often have evening where I leave the casino 2-3X ahead of where I started.
My luck at football betting is terrible, I'm even worse at horses.
When you're up it's quite the thrill. You weather the downs as a cost associated with the particular vice.
I enjoy "emotionally hedging" sports events - if I want X to win I bet on Y
Do you play any other things (sports or games)? Do you not ever go for low percentage / high risk actions if only for the pleasure of occasionally see them come good?
Think bicycle kick in football, haymaker in boxing, high stakes play in poker, 1-frame combos in Street Fighter, technically difficult riffs in a musical jam.
I feel your line of questioning locks money and all its uses to rationality. Money can be an instrument for pleasure and for many, risk-seeking is a pleasurable activity.