I'm sorry to see that you're struggling my friend. I'd love to help you, so if you ever need anything, feel free to give me more info on how I can reach you and I'd love to get a chance to give you my take on life and try to help you out...the fact that anything exists is amazing. Whenever I look at the world, I think: wow. Why does anything exist at all? Why is matter, time, or even a creator necessary? If you ask yourself this question, you'll find that you're worries will melt away. Some other tips which I think will definitely help you from my perspective: 1. Eat healthy (mostly plants and less meat) 2. Exercise 3. Keep in touch and meet great people who you love and 4. Have a meaning in your life: strive to accomplish something which gives you meaning. I'm hoping this helps? If anything, I'd love to have more of a chat with you and get to know much more about you, so let's stay in touch :) Also, I love your feedback!!!