I've been searching inwards for years now, and at some point there is nothing left I can do. I've routinely been fucked over by authority. In this case it cost me 2-3 years of my life and setbacks in school.
At this point my scholastic "record" (accidentally submitted failing grades to a school) at all of the good state schools precludes me from admission despite good performance in HS, and despite submitting my psychiatric record.
So... it's bullshit. I see a lot of people talking about not being a victim, but everything I do is thwarted. There is no choice but for me to be the victim, and society doesn't care.
2-3 years wasted - please, even working a job out of your field for that amount of time will teach you new things. You are hooked on this school situation as being the roadblock that's seemingly impossible to overcome. Figure it out.
The choice is yours to be a victim of circumstance. Time to get your ducks in order and have a little humility and compassion for yourself instead of throwing your hands up and calling bullshit. This is life.