Thanks I think you're correct. It's hard to take the clear disapointment from my bosses. But I can't do what I can't do and just have to aim to be better at a pace that I can. Some emotional disipline might be the best way to go. Am I doing better, rather than am I living up to the hopes of my bosses.

It's scary though would I be employable if I disapoint them too much. Will I get a terrible reference? Who knows.

I miss doing labour jobs were I could work my ass of all day and feel like I did a great job.