It's like some post-war syndromes where people feel the hollowness and pointlessness when seeing other people living a normal, meaningful life, or have to go back to the village from large cities.
It's like a red pill, it always bugs me like "I wish I have macros here", or "type classes here", "Erlang process here", "Hindley-Millner or structural typing here"... Actually those languages are not that outstanding, however, it defeats the motivations to make small in-box-improvements like "I'm going to use some OO pattern to make this more SOLID".
You can also try hard to slowly push the industry forward but it's still tens of years to be "professional" based on the history you have read, which sound very defeating for mortals, too.
Imagine yourself has been throwback to an early 90s project where the mantra is still "if it ain't broke, don't fix it", and everyone endlessly patches everything while rejects new technologies because no one else is using them.