Ask HN: Need help and support with suicide attempt recovery

I literally "failed at life" AND at death and am picking up the pieces. I regret a lot, including obviously the attempt as it made every problem I had even worse. It was fear and desperation. I know its a lot to ask of strangers, especially now, but local resources are bare, people who said they would be there are not, the system is poor and the people working in it admit that to me. I am trying to string along enough hands to hold on to and get past this and to I hope some future that I was too broken or too afraid to grab on to before in the one or two times in years there was even a chance from very kind people working around my disability. Email is in profile if you have the time or energy. Thanks.