I think Mz is trying to make the point that conventional /wisdom/ in modern medicine, is primarily to prolong life, and does so in preference to giving quality of life.
Edit: Yep, missed that part. I was wrong there.
Maybe you missed this part of my post:
...I got well in part because I stopped trying to live. At one time, my whole goal was to just hurt less. Suicide would have been gladly welcomed, so I understand why one would do that.