Honestly, I'm jealous. For so much of my life I was deeply skeptical of history as a field of study. It seemed arbitrary and useless. It turned out that what I'd seen of the subject was a bogus selective narrative carefully constructed to make me ignore the fact that the polity to which I am subject has been at war against non-white people for centuries. I probably should have been smart enough to figure this out earlier, but I wasn't. I wish that rather than constituting a complete waste of time, public school history classes could have better acquainted me with the world as it really is. Although, I wonder if that younger me would even have cared? The war media has a strong effect on inquisitive young minds. So much trivial bullshit to learn!