Graduated top college in 2012.
2014 First software job at a startup. 6 months.
2015 Second software job at a startup. 5 months.
2016 Third job. 2 months.
2017 Started my own company using inheritance. Didn't make anything or get any clients.
2018 Fourth job. 3 months.
2020 Latest job 1 year and counting!
(The ultimate irony is my current job is not a programming job but giving career advice to programmers and people who want to be programmers.)
My jobs finish either because I am too overwhelmed by them so I quit or I feel like I'm wasting my time working for someone else so I quit to start my own company.
It's shit. I feel suicidal a lot. I've been to doctors and they tell me I'm fine, that I'm not depressed etc. I don't think I'm going to go out and kill myself tomorrow, but my life is devoid of hope.
I just want a boring job writing boring code. Read something from a database. Generate a few tables. Output some PDFs. I've given up on trying to get into FAANG although the envy I feel for all my friends from college who did that is enormous.