That’s not at all accurate. Blaming yourself for having depression is like blaming yourself for having epilepsy. It’s not your “fault”.

It’s important to note that while you might be taking meds, but you might not be taking the right meds, in the right amount.

It took me a while to find the right combination for me. This is very, very common. Everyone is different. People react differently to different antidepressants. Finding the right med(s) is a process. It sucks but it’s worth it. You are worth it.

This comes from a belief that you could fix the problem via some thought process.

Is a type 1 diabetic simply outsourcing their disease to injectable insulin "instead of going thorough this and fixing [their] life"?

Depression doesn't work like that.

You asked for advice because what you were thinking/trying isn't working. Don't be surprised if some of the suggestions are going to be things you haven't tried yet.

Pills, especially ritalin have the side effect of being really hard to get off once your mind is ready to produce joy again. This might be a hard pill to swallow, but what you need is healthy habits.

It's common for introspective insight to be achieved only through chemical means. This is why psilocybin is finally being researched as a potential natural approach to certain disorders.