You are a self-diagnosed-autistic person (SDAP). You are upset that other SDAPs are consuming resources intended for ‘actual’ autistic persons. You would prefer to consume those resources yourself. You are trying to get a professional diagnosis as ‘autistic’. You have thus far been unsuccessful.
Are those the facts which you intended to convey?
People tell me I’m autistic all the time. I do not accept this label. I will not agree to the diagnosis, treatment, or aid of any sort. I don’t care if it’s in a book. I call it rationality. I see information where other people see emotions. I realize that this is a deficit in relating to many other people and the world at large. If I were to change one thing to adapt better, it would be stronger recognition and avoidance of emotional people, and closer connection to rationals. Emotional people can be very convincing to get what they want from rationals.