https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=29737535
I can start:
1. Do workouts regularly, running at least 2 times a week
2. Walk around 1500km in a year
3. Finish a new personal project (app for Android/iOS) on Flutter
4. Move all scripts from Python to Go
5. Periodically write updates about my life and events around me (like a diary)
2. I'm currently working on Vim Reference Guide ebook. Likely to publish in the first quarter
3. Have several more book topics in mind, but not sure if I'll start working on any of them. And it is possible that I'll come up with something else I fancy and work on it instead of already planned topics
4. Hope to make interactive apps for programming related exercises, work on games for fun, contribute to open source projects, etc
2. Hopefully finish or get rather far in the side project I’m invested in the most.
3. Start trying to contribute to NetBSD. I’m extremely happy that my Alpha, VAX, and SGI hardware can be revived with a modern OS and I would like to help contribute to that / prevent stagnation while I can.
There are some other things I’d like to do, that likely won’t happen, thanks to the added stressors of the next year, and the passage of time.
1. Continue writing the 9 remaining books of my Dev Concepts collection: [1]
2. Write essays and articles about Personal Knowledge Management and grow my community: [2]
3. Continue publishing my weekly newsletter: [3]
4. Launch my YouTube channel and start publishing content regularly (about Dev & IT, Knowledge Management & personal organization)
5. Build and launch a few products in the PKM space
6. Get better at design
7. Read a ton non-fiction books
8. Make new friends
9. Play even more board games (Arkham Horror LCG, Gloomhaven, Clank legacy, Pandemic legacy, etc)
10. Start exercising again regularly
2. Finish up a R and Python library to automate common data science tasks
3. Get better at Google Cloud Platform
4. Find a girlfriend
2. Complete a 50 miler ultra-marathon
3. Buy a vacation home on a lake
4. Start leading and organizing group events that I wish existed but no one else has stepped up on
If you need someone to talk to, just send me a message, or reach me on my e-mail: me at my username dot com
I had a period of my life about 12 years ago (I was 39/40 years old) where I felt similar to you. Everything I did and had in my life seemed pointless and I felt like I was just waiting around to see it all inevitably crash and burn. When I went in public all I saw was a mass of people I felt completely disconnected from and wondered what problems and fears they were hiding. Panic attacks, difficulty getting out of bed. After a long mental struggle with myself assuming that the way I felt couldn’t be fixed I went to the doctor and started therapy. Aside from treatment for depression, it turned out that due to stress my testosterone had crashed and was below 100 (600-800) is normal.
What you are feeling is a chemically induced state we interpret as feelings. Please don’t assume that feeling can’t be changed. With a bit of perspective and chemical correction you will be amazed how much better things can be and you can find your purpose and drive again. It will take time and it will take work, but it is worth it. Don’t let your brain lead you astray, it can play tricks on you and of course, it all feels real.
I wonder if its more common than we realize.