Me used to have too much money when single. Now there's a wife and three kids to feed and educate, and a mortgage to pay, so that things have changed, slightly... (still a family really does help with existential questions, if you ask me; Nowadays I don't bother very much about existential crap)
I feel like my next step is definitely having kids with my loved one but I'm afraid to make that step while having unresolved existential questions. Don'r want to have kids to "fix" myself but I do feel like my body is yearning for that next biological step
It seems like you are looking at your thoughts as a part of yourself. They might just be a phenomena triggered by your current circumstances in the same way a sneeze can be triggered by dust.
Not sure that things are that deterministic.
If you're around SF then very probably yes. Outside of the US very probably no.