Sympathies for your loss. Grief comes in many forms and there is no right or wrong way to grieve it’s even harder when you don’t feel like you have anyone to grieve with. I’m an open ear if you need one.

Recently there was a podcast episode made by some guys I follow that is one of the most real an raw conversations I’ve heard (other than my own) about death and grieving. It may or may not be helpful. I’ll quote the description and give a link.

“On November 19th Erin and Michael lost their 13-year old daughter, London, to a rare disease (HLH). It was an intense fight and escalated faster than anyone could cognitively understand. One of our practices is to be open and honest about our process, to discuss how we work influences how we live. This is the start of that conversation, of realizing your worst fear and stepping up to confront all that comes with grief, pain, loss, and love.”

https://www.nonprophet.media/podcast-nonprophet/ep-181-londo...