There is a slight disconnect in what you are saying you are and what you want for yourself. If you say you are not competitive, then why are you trying to uplift yourself or make a dent? Success is very relative. You either need to have enough self esteem to find joys in other things in life to treat the job as a job and not let your performance at it shake you too much OR you can make a choice that what you want matters to you to the point you are ready and WANT to work for it.

There are no free lunches. Nothing comes for free. So why should success? If you want something, you HAVE TO work for it.

So this brings me to my three steps for you:

1. Give a hard look within yourself for what you want. Keep in mind that this can change with age and what you want for yourself now won't be what you want 5 or 10 years from when you will have to do this exercise over again.

2. Once you've figured out what you want, the hard part is figuring out EVERYTHING, and I mean absolutely EVERYTHING, that you will need to succeed at it. It is completely easy to delude yourself at this point. People delude themselves into thinking a 1 hour YouTube video can make them a programmer or a 497 dollar course can make them a real estate mogul. There is real work involved and you have to research to KNOW WHAT YOU'RE GETTING INTO. If you ignore this step, you are going to enter a field with a false sense of security and, to some extent, entitlement because you will expect your dreams to come true but wont have the hard skills needed to survive long enough to achieve them.

3. Finally only if you decide that the hard work is worth it, COMMIT yourself to it. Commitment is a word which does a lot of heavy lifting and I personally believe that very few people, especially the younger ones, know what that word entails.

Only if you do all of these 3, will you be successful. If you skip 1, you will be passionless and hate your career. If you skip 2, you will trampled by your competition because you won't even know what you don't know. If you skip 3, you will just give up at the first sign of hardship.

I, for myself, decided that I'm not very competitive and would rather live life easily rather than kill myself to compete with others. I've given up hope on a lot of things and know there are a few things I'll never have but I'm OK with that for now.

Good luck with your decision.