I think a lot of people with ADHD would relate, or have been able to at some point.
On the professional side, my ADHD/OCD makes for some clean code and pedantically-set up servers. Nothing says ADHD/OCD like taking two days to crank out code which some of my colleagues can crank out in half the time. I'm told I'm too pedantic sometimes. Too much of a perfectionist. ADHD can do that to you. I'm happy with my lot in life.
I have failed my whole life, I cannot start shit, I cannot finish anything, I'm just an impulsive monkey who is unfortunately aware of their own situation, stuck inside a body, forced to watch a deadly trainwreck in slow motion.
The little I've achieved has taken me 10x as much time as it would've a normal person. And I'm pissing it all away anyway.
This is hell.
And then I see "everyone in my life is ADHD lolkek" "I'm happy".
Sorry. Glad your case is mild enough.
Wouldn't you say that ADHD affects the person, and therefore the type of personality would change the outcome? (In contrast to ADHD defining the person)
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I know the urge to beat yourself to for it is pretty strong. But the only thing you can do is regroup and try to make the rest of today better. Then start again tomorrow.
You’ve achieved something, right? Maybe it took ten times as long. That’s fine. Just keep at it. Don’t compare yourself to other people, just yourself yesterday. That’s all that can count.
It’s easier said than done. Don’t hate yourself though. Life isn’t easy, you just make the most of it. Take care.