Yeah i felt the same way. Left tech. Now i own a construction business. Very rewarding work. Imagine people living in or conducting business inside of your work product for perhaps generations.
It's far more satisfying, and I don't hate humanity after every shift.
Unfortunately, it's not a long-term way to make a living.
i wish you the best of luck in finding something that satisfies your objectives in life and provides fulfillment.
writing software as a hobby is fun and rewarding.
im a quick study. and i had the benefit of a good teacher.
once i get a foothold of basic fundamental knowledge i supplement it with reading, just like i did when i wrote software professionally, and anything else.