Why this pressure to make me necessarily reject or accept an idea? Seems like a false dichotomy. Instead, why can't I be aware of all sorts of ideas, have them bouncing around my head, loosely held, and believe more or less in them, even opposing ones, as I learn more?

I'm never really sure about anything, really, so there's a constant internal debate going on over various topics. While that's not necessarily good for making quick decisions, I do appreciate the mental flexibility that my uncertainty ends up giving me. Weird, controversial, silly, or obvious ideas can be useful also in order to connect with other viewpoints, practicing empathy in a way.