I’m in this exact same boat right now, word for word, other than I haven’t had the assessment yet (very soon though).

I’m quite literally desperate for any answers at this point, my teen years and 20s were on the whole, an absurd nightmare.

The only thing that worries me is they’ll tell me I have it because that’s the easy thing to do. I don’t want a diagnosis unless they’re 100% sure and I worry that paying for the assessment will bias the outcome.