i'm finally being pushed into trying to go from wantrepreneur to entrepreneur - it's not working out for me (yet?), but it's def exhilirating. and i still have this feeling that as soon as i do it, i'll be like 'FUCK!' -- as in, why didn't i do this x years ago? i, like a lot of people, have tried to try, but not _really_.
my particular view on life is, as an americano/whitey/male/etc., i have literally 1Mx more opportunity, thus responsibility, to do good/important shit than the literally billions of other people who do _not_ enjoy what i do, so that's a driver to me to actually try to do something useful/meaningful w/ my time on earth.
but it's also just selfish - i want it - i don't think humans were made to take orders from a dictator, and it's a/the reason i've always had problems with having my own personal dictator - whoever happened to be my boss.