Such a weird “belief” to hold, although admittedly I held it until my late twenties. The one objective fact of the universe is it exists and it existing at all is freaking weird. What is the uncaused cause and why are we here to experience it? Saying it’s an accident holds zero logical weight and human logic being “made up” isnt an argument but further proof of this. The truth is your nihilist belief has been taken down by so many philosophers and thinkers across so many different cultures it seems criminal none of these arguments in favor of meaning are taught in schools. Then we wonder why everyone’s so depressed.