Unless you worked at Apple in a team involved in this, there is no reason for you to need to feel embarrassed or ashamed here. Binding your self-image to the actions of an organization puts you at risk of harmful outcomes when – not if – their position eventually conflicts with your own. If their actions are so egregious that you decide to end your support of them, then that’s perfectly understandable. However, judging you to be at fault for their actions would be nonsensical, and has no place here.