This is nicely written. But I can’t really agree with it.

What does your life mean? Nothing, obviously. You’re doing a job to survive and have wealth to enjoy life.

Your dad had a different economic context. It’s not relevant or a standard you need to care about.

You’re not living on bread, you’re enjoying a nice dinner with a daughter on a milestone.

The tone of all this is distinctly non child like. It’s extremely adult. I feel like you’re conflating anxiety with immaturity