I've had that happen. I recently bought a few Muji notebooks for $2/piece[1]. They're thin, beautiful, and relatively cheap. I want to use them to doodle with less constraint or self-judgement, but still with a good experience. It's a weird balance between writing in a way that feels good, but also not judging yourself too much because you're using beautiful tools and materials.

[1] https://www.muji.us/products/bind-grid-notebook-9s62?_pos=2&...