I love the bit about chasing all paths until you no longer enjoy any of it. That’s classic burnout. Also, while reading it struck me that you called out the fact that you were setting goals to impress other people because that’s what you were trained to do, since childhood. Make parents/teachers/boss happy by meeting the goals. When tasked with coming up with your own, you thought “what would they like?”.

I would highly, highly, recommend anyone interested in video games to play The Beginners Guide as it tackles this very issue. Your motives. “Letting other people set your success criteria” isn’t the answer. The real answer is “what does success look like to you?”