Ever thought about going to the grey/black market? If the athletes can get it why can’t you? I could understand the reasons why you may not want to. I have chronic fatigue and if it wasn’t for black market medications I would still be stuck in bed until I ran out of money by which time the only state help I could expect is assisted suicide - which made the choice for me. Myostatin inhibitors peptides like follistatin 344 are pretty pedestrian compared some of the stuff I’m on. I would die long before the meds I’m on would get FDA approval.