That's an interesting tale of outgrowing heroes.
TBH, Capt. Janeway (Mulgrew) is still my favourite leader in Voyager perhaps more than Picard (Stewart)
Ironically - didn't Shatner outgrow his love for the mission to boldly go?
When he returned with Jeff Bezos something of the coldness of space returned with him, he said something cryptic like "All I see out there is death..."
Edit: Bezos, of course not Musk