She was right, I held my hands up and apologised.
We then had a conversation about how I'm hardwired from my childhood to look for danger. This is one of the primary "skills" that has led me to run a successful business for most of my life. The reason being that by being able to see around corners, I'm very good at not making a mistake that kills the business.
Unfortunately like all strengths, this strength brings a set of weaknesses. The weakness it brings for me is an obsession on the things that could go wrong, what has gone wrong, how to do better, how to be better and so on. Aka negativity.
I wouldn't be where I am without this blessing and its associated curses but I do sometimes wish I could just go with the flow some more.
To that end, I work out, I spend less time in front of a computer than ever before, I practice stoicism, I have wider hobbies...but still, it's an ongoing thing to manage.
I guess this is no different to people with athletic abilities who have tortured their bodies for years and now get sore knees/hips etc from time to time.