Your writing is yet another confirmation for my tentative (yet ca. 20 years old) life phylosophy about that we should seek balance in everything (means: most of things, because the other one is about no absolutes) and the extremes are the devil. Extreme happyness and goodness too. That's actually a blatant - or clulessly idiotic - lie, not good or happy.

Ironically your writing about having less positivity made me feel affirming and good. Sounds like my kind of thinking.