ACE 7. I feel good about some parts of my life, but mostly I hate it. I miss human connection deeply, but I don't see any path to having it in my life after my relationship of a year ended. I feel disconnected from my upbringing and like I don't know how to function as a white collar worker, and I constantly feel like I don't deserve what I have now as an engineer. I love my cat and my family though, and doing computer graphics for a living is a dream come true in a lot of ways.