I don't think they really "want" you to die; it's just that their priorities do not align with your well-being. Consequently, their actions negatively impact the welfare you could have enjoyed if this power structure prioritized your needs more. Allocating billions to Ukraine and Israel doesn't necessarily directly worsen your situation per se, but it is one of the reasons why the state can only provide $750 USD to families affected by Hurricane Milton if they applications go through.