The only advice I’ll ever give on insomnia is to keep trying new things, and to go ask for help.

I tried just about everything in terms of routine and ritual. Years and years of suffering and putting holes in basement drywall and believing I’m broken and increasingly frequent thoughts of suicide. And I hit a tipping point where the pain overcame my stupid stubbornness and I finally went and asked for help.

“I don’t want Ambien or one of those life destroying drugs. I’d rather just go quietly” was my thinking and what I said to I the doctor.

Introduced to a newish drug without significant side effects or addictiveness and it immediately changed my life. Sleep is now a feature as my dreams are incredibly vivid. It changed a family member’s life too. It didn’t do a thing for another close friend.

Just keep trying things. Don’t give up.