No, you're not, and yes I am telling you how you feel.
This is, for lack of a better word, "cope".
Even if you think some of this stuff is cool, you can't be so stupid as to just ignore all the economic damage around you. That does affect you, whether you have the conviction to admit it or not. At the end of the day, you _will_ suffer. There is no pride in being both a loser and a coward.
It would be best to just be a loser.