Hence the "delusion". You are just a typical case of something many here experienced, including myself.
Didn’t like where you were, there was always somewhere else to go and a new name to take.
Getting access to the internet was a major issue for the poor (a situation I have first-hand experience in)- but once you were in, you were part of the club. Unless you behaved poorly- then you had to make a new name for yourself somewhere else.