I wrote articles and applications, and it always was a struggle. But now I can speed up, make it all go much faster. But I often feel like my mental models can't keep up.
Recently the AI has generated a comprehensive data model (in Django) and I find myself retracing its steps with long discussions and explanations (with/from the LLM) and searching for documentation. With scientific assignments I find myself searching literature on my own, read whole papers as I used to. Checking the LLM constantly but adapting to it and I don't like it, don't like how it steers me, just let me search, let me wander the scientific landscape on my own, let me read the words of the authors with opposing views. Then let me make 20 plots and only use 1, let me wrestle with the data. Let me make wrong visuals that by chance communicate something important about the data.
Because otherwise I feel uncomfortable, I need to understand, that is what I do. I can reason about so many things because my internal world model is comprehensive and mostly correct. That has taken 44 years so far. Hard work from time to time, but I've mostly enjoyed it.
I still don't know what to make of these models, I use them everyday, but sometimes I wonder if I was not just as fast with Stack Overflow, because what I crave is understanding, not "some finished app". Yes, I rarely finish things fully (that's how I feel), but in research I've often been told they like my ability to move very fast and creatively in phase one, the development is left to others anyway...
I crave an understanding of what these tools mean to me exactly. This comment is part of that. HN is part of that.