Well if you mean I'm a shameful person for all of my personal life failures, you're probably right.. I think I disappointed you though, because even thinking of going on reddit these days makes me feel torn and miserable so I actively avoid it..

Thanks for the sentiment regardless, maybe one day I wil be able to fulfil your expectations by creating an alt to ask about troubleshooting home electricity questions... but in the meantime I don't feel being on reddit (where I should belong..)