I really appreciate the self-reflective answer and I fully understand the conflict.

You seem like a thoughtful dude, kudos.

I fully agree with your assessment about capitalism devolving into either fascism or some sort of feudalism.

I, too, have been struggling with what a more just system could look like.

Personally, some aspects of Yugoslav worker self-management appeal to me.

Basic idea is: Companies compete on a market, but theres no stock market. Companies <= 5 employees can be run however the founders envisioned, past that boundary the board and exec suite are required to be elected by the workers.

Combined with state grants and regulations to direct the overall direction of the economy, I feel like it solves for a lot of issues of shareholder capitalism without swapping them for a whole separate set of Commissariat problems.

Of course, the state itself wasn't democratic in Yugoslavia and it suffered from ethnic tensions that ultimately tore it apart. But we don't need to copy their setup wholesale.

Wonder how you'd feel about something like that?