I'm going to project here. Please don't negvouch. I know I am projecting here.
I'd like to note that it seems your life at a computer mostly revolves around Emacs and emacs only.
This doesn't sound sane to me. And you should probably try to diversity when it comes to your engagement with your computer.
The whole computer is supposed to provide you with an ecosystem but Emacs just by itself will not provide you with a whole ecosystem in which you can trive in.
My apologies for this "insane" comment.