Job loss and cortisone mania
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Anamanaguchi - "Buckwild"
Ignoring art with patrons which is a tiny percent of all art made, people just did things at home quietly. They painted, drew, told stories, knit, crocheted, etc. Even patron-led artists just made what their patrons wanted, namely all the famous religious art, which I imagine felt like unfulfilling work anyway.
What we like, that is to say gets things like our dopamine flowing, tends to tie in well with the idea of not being compelled to do it. Someone writing copy at work to further enrich the capital owning class and to pay their bills is very different than someone writing short stories in the evening after work.
Now my days largely consist of navigating a “game of thrones” political landscape where work means less than it ever has. The sense of agency I once coveted now feels like a distant memory in some ways.
But to be fair this is probably something that people experienced in many different ages of humanity.
This is because you were already meeting the base of your pyramid of needs. If you were building shelter because you had none, or hunting for subsistence, it’s considerably less enjoyable. Success means you live another day, failure means suffering. Self actualization is not a concern in those scenarios.
> Isnt this the human condition and fundamental to our species and everything about us? People in the past weren't fulfilled doing back-breaking farm labor or out hunting all day hoping to catch a meal and knowing if you don't catch a meal a few days in a row you'll be too weak to catch anymore.
No. I think if you go far enough into the past, the "jobs" were fun and enjoyable. As technology has progressed, many jobs have gotten farther and farther from what we were meant to do.
And AI isn't going to help. The best case scenario is it replaces work with purposeless entertainments and ennui. The more likely case it that it removes fulfilling work from human hands, leaving more space for unfulfilling work and poverty (because capitalist logic CANNOT be questioned, or you're a heretic who should be burned at the stake).
Which jobs specifically were fun and enjoyable and during which period? What is the evidence for that?
If you go back to hunter-gather times, I'm sure human physiology and motivation was much better suited to the kinds of jobs people had to do to survive. A lot of those things (hunting, gathering (e.g. mushrooms), gardening) are still things people do for fun now.
And it just makes logical sense to evolve to like to do the things you need to do to survive, and we had evolutionary-long timescales to do that (unlike things like code-reviewing LLM PRs).
For my part, there is a huge price I’m willing to pay to be able to drink water out of my tap. I didn’t have this always and I really value it.
Nah, couldn't be. You can't have running water without also having Elon Musk ruin Twitter, that's just a crazy fantasy.
Yeah. Things people do as hobbies tend to be things they enjoy.
There are a lot of people out there right now spending their free time prompting LLMs to write more code, because they find it fun.
Many jobs also improved your fitness unless you were injured. Anything manual required more aerobic capacity and strength hence making you more fit.
Modern people are sleep deprived, weak, and aerobically deficient unless they spend time outside of work focusing on these things. We simply aren’t meant to sit around all day staring at a screen only to then sit and drive a car.
I’d argue modern life is much more comfortable but counterintuitively there is a constant discomfort that is chronic because of it.
Another way to think about this is that humans are meant to suffer everyday. If you are not forcing it through physical exertion it slowly leaks and if it is not exhausted it is constant.
Rose colored glasses. “We won’t starve today” is not spiritually fulfilling. It’s survival.
People romanticize the past. Modern life is more comfortable specifically because everyone isn’t struggling to survive. (Obviously some still are.)
> Many jobs also improved your fitness unless you were injured.
That’s a real big “if”. You can go get a construction job right now. It will get you more fit. But it will probably also get you injured, especially over the long term.
Obviously I don't know the answers, and there were obviously tons of day-to-day stressors that sucked, but I'm not so sure it's a given that people of the past did not find life fulfilling/meaningful.
You think it'd be fulfilling when your children had around a 25% chance to die before the age of five?
EDIT: in fact these days, people make fun of me because I sought fulfilment in my career as a whole, and it’s my fault now that I’m depressed that it’s gone. I’ve come across this snarky comment more than a couple times on this forum.
But often 6 of one, half a dozen of the other eh?
Notably, I’ve found the worse abuse happens if you still keep contact with folks like this after you find a way through. Talk about murderous jealousy!
next time when its uprising, there shall be no mercy whatsoever to the exploiter class
lol
lmao
the reason we have weekends and no child labor is because workers died for it.
the state, the capitalists desire control, obedience and extraction. worker well-being is a low priority. workers advocating for better pay, safe working conditions, etc were routinely killed.
why is it laughable to say that there is a need to resist the injustice and push for better working conditions and rights for all?
Does that happen now? How often? Are you or your friends at risk?
> why is it laughable to say that there is a need to resist the injustice
It is not, it is normal and necessary.
Thing that is laughable is push for violence expecting a good outcome.
it is just for some reason being tolerant of abuse and exploitation is normalized, people are kept on minimum wage that hasnt changed for many decades.
elites get to enjoy the benefits of rich society only because the rest of the people tolerate it, but it doesn't have to be case
and overly extractive systems are unstable over the long term.
are you confident that the current level of extraction is optimal, or sustainable?
if a large part of society decides that it's not optimal or sustainable, where would you stand? prevent change? or seek equitable and stable redistribution?
there are so many examples of the inherent unwillingness for the beneficiaries of extractive systems to resist change: see the laws imposed against serfs following the black death, or the shooting and violent suppression of striking union workers.
that cycle is beginning again: MAGA, widespread rioting in France, Italy and other places.
There is economic and political injustice. Systemic extraction is passing a stable equilibrium.
relax the grip on power and resources, or spend the blood and treasure it will cost to maintain it.
but don't bullshit anyone with this 'life has an inherent cost': that's trivially obvious to everyone.
we are well past the point of collectively paying that cost. it's just not fairly or reasonably distributed.
No, I just don’t think a class war is the answer. Equitable and stable resource distribution doesn’t necessitate retribution towards the current ruling class. An imperfect system beats no system at all.
Starting tradition of violence is easier than stoping it.
What do you think our odds would be?
The extractive institutions are pleased that you believe this.
And then I remember that basic living has always had a cost to be paid. I doubt the first hunter gatherers sat around wondering if they were fulfilled. They just had a more immediate sight-line from their labor to their actual living costs.
Most of us here work well-paid jobs that allow us to pay our requirements and still have disposable income to enjoy our lives. But work we must; homes aren't free and neither is food and much of the entertainment we enjoy.
I don't feel particularly exploited. I fear if you do whatever menacing thing you're insinuating you want to do to the "exploiter class" then my job will go away and much of my lifestyle with it. Not sure that's a good outcome for anyone, really.
Wait a second-- I didn't do that at all.
A little bit of historical knowledge, a little bit of reading statistics of wealth inequality currently being about the same level as France before the French revolution. A little bit of looking around and doing the math for what a schoolteacher, or someone earning the median income has to do to survive right now, and maybe you can develop a bit of empathy.
We are at a historical apex of economic exploitation in the US, where we have a trillionaire preaching about the dangers of empathy while giving billions to politicians to ensure he is never taxed or his companies regulated. We are the sons and daughters with far less security, working harder for longer and for less than our parents. We have more gadgets but far less peace or leisure or time to take care of our neighbors.
My point was that this all feels a bit rich on a forum with mostly well todo software engineers. You are not an exploited victim if you are making a high income working a white collar job in a comfortable glass tower, and the worst thing that ever happens to you is the occasional off-hour page.
the revolutionaries who fought for the poor, were often from the upper class themselves, and all revolutions were basically one subset of elites fighting against the incumbent elites, mounting the accumulated discontent among the poors
A bit self centered take.
Centuries(Millenia) of slaves would probably dispute that.
That's not a good thing. It means we're failing to progress as a species. If we keep repeating history (with now, unfettered access to it), we're devolving, not evolving.
One way to look at glorious olden days is that man with one job could feed his whole family.
Other way to look at same times is that panama canal construction cost tens of thousands of lives and US had did not end systemic racism until 80’s.
I posit that no small part of prosperity of middle class was result of having less fortunate helping out due to lesser bargaining power (somewhere else in the country or the world)
It is good that people die less during construction. And it is ok to cost more.
So this is kind of a pedantic point, but 95% of our history is us doing things exactly as we evolved to do. I don't doubt either that hunting must have been a very engaging activity, especially when done as a clan or tribe.
This has been the miserable meaningless life for billions of people over the centuries
Few become an artist or painter or musician or whatever other thing they'd like to do but can't pay the bills
nathan fielder has been making rounds recently
I felt he captured the golden shackles paradox of a cozy job here. if we are happy when fired, why don’t we quit?
I've been working on my blog lately, and having only a few posts up and no readership, I'm now blown away by all the comments and mails and support I'm receiving. Thank you so much everybody!
It's a privilige to live in Germany, where I have public health insurance, and access to great doctors and staff. I'm tapering off the cortisone right now (I'll be taking it for six weeks in total, so I dodge a lot the strain it can have), and am now on another medication. I don't feel comfortable sharing my condition / medication due to me being on the job hunt, but maybe one day. Thanks for all the pointers, too.
It fascinates me a topic that I was reading a couple days ago in a magazine (a old-professor of mine from college wrote it) about young people fantasizing about living in the past rather than the future.. and that could only mean that people is really anxious about the future.
Weird times.
There’s just a general feeling of dread and malaise in society. You see it in public too. Everyone is stonefaced and going about their day. There is no hum/hustle and bustle like I used to see in public places in the past. Money is very tight and everything is way too expensive. I mean lunches cost between 15 and $20 even in places that are not big cities. Basic grocery shopping runs cost $500 at this point. I think one of the biggest things is, you can essentially live a whole life without really having to interact with a whole lot of people now. Corporations provide all your services. The Internet provides community knowledge.
That being said I feel like I existed at the perfect time. I was able to get a social media and smart phone free youth and a great career in my middle age which means I can retire early and provide for my wife and kids with the money I’ve made so far. The next generation is screwed. I worry for my kids.
This moment in technology and society is really weird.
The things that were meant to be, will be. That's for acceptance. But we have free will (sort of). And that's for action.
Also, highly recommend these books so that you can also take a more active role for your health (but you need to exercise extreme caution and critical thinking as some of the stuff in there may not be valid or valid anymore):
1. Back to Eden (J. Kloss) [says in one section on pregnancy that expectant mothers must avoid all meat--which is bad advice. But there are some good ones there, nevertheless]
2. Let's get well (A. Davis)
3. You can get well (A. Davis)
Anyways, for you folks - life is a gift, I did not see many conventional "healthy" days since I turned 40, but with faith in Christ I have been healed many times, lived so many years and worked as a normal programmer. Things may have looked very difficult at some points, but faith and love of Jesus pulled me through.
If you have good health, take care of it and personally live a - "holy" life, the rest follows. I know I may sound strange but my biggest regrets have been when I messed up in life by hurting others or living selfishly with no self control.
That is subsumed in the "faith in Christ" bit. For the religious, the latter doesn't exist independent of the former.
My point is this: it's fine if you don't agree with their beliefs, you can simply ignore that part of the comment and reply to its essence. The parent wasn't trying to convince anyone to take a magic pill.
I disagree with many people here on various topics such as politics, philosophy or outlooks but never have the urge to attack them.
In one domain, they are skeptical and thorough, but in the other they’ll just take anything at face value without questioning it. How do they even know which god was responsible? There’s more than one religion claiming to be the one true religion.
It’s also strange to bring up magic in a discussion about medicine.
Belief in a God doesn't require that the believer never questions their own faith. It is possible for them to question it, do their own experiment, and determine that there is a God. They could even start as an atheist scientist.
> How do they even know which god was responsible?
Lots of religions have an answer for this. Probably all of them, but I am only familiar with so many. Sounds like you have taken religion "at face value" and could be more "skeptical and thorough" in your research/understanding of them, to quote yourself.
If you know of a testable hypothesis for any religion, I’d love to know because I’ve never heard one.
I’m open to being convinced, but I’ve never seen or heard anything convincing for any religion.
John 7:17 (Christianity) Kalama Sutta:10 (Buddhism) Alma 32:28-43 (Mormonism)
The other three I read from (Quran, Bhagavad Gita, Torah) might also encourage this approach, but I didn't find the passage. If you are willing to read the verses around Kalama Sutta 10 paired with the test described in Alma, I think that is a 'complete' set of instructions for starting. This complete picture is in the NT too, but split across several books and not beginner friendly.
You cannot "observe" religion externally, just it's practices, like the eating pork thing your sibling brought up. The practices are the dead portion of the religion, just ways to apply the principles the religion is meant to teach. Just like laws change as culture changes, applications must too, and anyone who views their own religion as just practices probably hasn't read their own ancient text or didn't understand it. Anyway, I have given you what you need to make an observation. You'll have to be a scientist and do a hands on test if you expect to discover anything.
I think you might be undercutting a few other factors here, though whatever helps your ability to persevere when in such a vulnerable state isn't a nil-factor :)
It's difficult to discern precisely the claim you're making, but it is suggestive, something to the effect that all religious people reduce all good events to miraculous acts. If that is the case, then you are misinformed and - it would seem - painting all "religious" people with the same broad brush. I would strongly recommend looking at something like JPII's encyclical "Fides et Ratio" [0].
As the OP would appear to be a Christian, I will say that according to a robust and mature Christian understanding of the world and its relation to God, there is a distinction between what are called primary causality and secondary causality. While all that exists is granted its existence and causal power by God (primary causality), within the created order and thus within the domain of secondary causes, things operate as genuine causes. This is not some kind of occasionalism where the world is more or less a kind of cosmic puppet theater. So there is no contradiction between gratitude for, say, a doctor's successful intervention and the divine cause that enables it, even when nothing miraculous has occurred (whether quoad substantiam, quoad subjectum, or quoad modum et ordinem).
> i agree that this type of cope may actually be useful, though, it's just insulting at the same time.
I suppose understanding this latter sentence presupposes understanding the first, but I would point back to the division of causal orders above, and perhaps be mindful of superbia vitae.
[0] https://www.vatican.va/content/john-paul-ii/en/encyclicals/d...
> a doctor's successful intervention and the divine cause that enables it
For religious people there is always the single factor, and it's always a bit insulting when they remind you they view the world this way.
I'm a religious person. I both agree that I'm here because of my own choices and the choices of those around me, which were highly influenced by an uncountable of chance events that led to those decisions being made at that time and place.
And at the same time, I choose to point to God that what has happened is what has happened.
I do agree, there are those who do make it seem like only God did this thing, as if any rando person could have done that surgery or what have you. But saying "for religious people..." is being overly reductive IMO.
You'd probably be a bit offended if you encountered someone in the wild who told you that your religious beliefs sound more like a child's fairytale than an accurate understanding of how the universe functions.
Similarly, others will be offended when you tell them "things happen for a reason, under the guidance of a conscious actor."
No one is being overly reductive or misunderstanding anything -- we just disagree. And that's okay.
What I'm talking about is specifically this statement:
> For religious people there is always the single factor
That for all religious people there is only a single factor, that factor being God. As if nobody else's own work and struggle enabled that positive outcome, it was just God that stepped in and make everything just magically happen every time. I've experienced people (plenty, trust me) who lived life this way, and I totally get the frustration at dealing with such people. Because, in the end they usually use such a mindset to not give a shit about the people who were actually there that made the positive outcome happen. They can ignore giving back and supporting those who toiled to ensure the positive outcome happened.
Suggesting all religious people live live this way and with this viewpoint is painting a very negative view of all religious people. Tons of religious people absolutely do not have this viewpoint, at all, even if they see God's influence in their lives.
I absolutely still credit the surgeon for my survival, I definitely still tip my bar tender for a good time.
I think you're just getting hung up on phrasing here. No one is stating this literally -- it's obviously easily disproven.
Change 1-2 words and you'll see what people really believe (and it's true):
> For many religious people there is always a specific factor that is present, that factor being God.
You are basically saying that while the surgeon did have a hand in the outcome, some god intervened in the process and allowed/enabled it to occur. You have to understand that to the rest of us, this belief is absurd and hard to take seriously.
I can easily disprove you.
Here it is:
> For religious people there is always the single factor
Once again that line is:
> there is always the single factor
Lets zoom in
> always the single factor
Continue zooming in
> single factor
> while the surgeon did have a hand in the outcome, some god intervened in the process and allowed/enabled it to occur
Yes, as in multiple factors, enabled by God. Note, you mention the surgeon having a hand in the outcome. How could that then be a single factor?
> You have to understand that to the rest of us, this belief is absurd and hard to take seriously.
Ok, but don't argue that I'm stating its a single factor as if I don't give a shit about the fact the doctor spent a lot of effort to be trained and all the thousands of years of healthcare led to that knowledge being given. I can absolutely still respect and acknowledge that...meaning...not a single factor.
I'm referring to a "single factor," as in one factor among many.
You are getting caught up in phrasing, and you're actually being blinded by it.
Best of luck.
> No one is stating this literally
> You are getting caught up in phrasing
This is a text message board, how else am I supposed to take something other than the way someone chose to state things in text? Should I take their body language into account? The phrasing is truly all I have to go by.
> Change 1-2 words and you'll see what people really believe
Maybe you should have actually gone with those other sets of words then, assuming you're really the same person I was replying to? I'm replying to a specific comment, not some imagined idea of a comment with a radically different meaning.
And fwiw, I've definitely been around a lot of people who essentially use "God did this" to downplay thanking people for their hard work and efforts in the positive outcomes in life. I can totally get and agree with how annoying and shitty this kind of mentality can be. If someone has truly only known that kind of religious person, I can get how it would be easy to assume all religious people are that same kind of shitty. But they're definitely not all like that.
Its like I'm replying to "all birds are blue" and saying "nah there's a red bird over there, and they actually come in a lot of colors" and then you come in and say "nobody is saying all birds are blue..."
You might take this to reflect how not all religious people are the same, and can't easily be grouped into a single category.
Best of luck.
(Assuming you're not just role-playing being involved:)
> Throwaway accounts are ok for sensitive information, but please don't create accounts routinely. HN is a community—users should have an identity that others can relate to.
Maybe HN expects everyone to respect their stupid rules. Bad expectation to have.
As humans were more likely to celebrate the God who provides the cure more so than the God who creates the disease.
IMO accessibility is an under-discussed benefit of the recent AI improvements. I've recovered from my RSI (typing injury) enough to use a keyboard a moderate amount but doubt I could ever go back to shredding through a codebase like I used to. In an earlier era I might have left the field entirely.
But still, even if all one has to do is read diffs and mumble to Claude, there's no getting around fatigue and brain fog when it's severe enough.
This guy should get his thyroid checked.
For what it's worth the auto-immune issues can happen in periods of high stress. The low-energy, joint pain, etc, that could all have been a result of the stress from losing your job. The body is crazy and we underestimate the extent to which our minds and the stresses of life can influence our bodily health.
> In some phases of my life, I can take a giant step back, and look at it like from a bird’s eye view.
This is exactly what I'd be doing. Think about where the world is heading and how you might best position yourself for that world and where you want to be in it. Look at least 10 years out. Overly optimising to solve immediate problems is rarely the best move longer-term. For this reason sometimes these forced-reflection periods can be beneficial in the long-term if they shake you onto a better path.
Best of luck man. It's good to hear your optimistic. I hope everything works out exactly as you hope in the end =)
The future is so hazy now. Maybe it sounds somewhat contradictory given what I said, but I think to take a long-term view at this moment you have to assume a high level of uncertainty, and that means you have to hedge and be more short-term oriented in your decisions.
For example, if you need to train for 2 years to reskill, then you require another few years of entry level work in that field before earning a decent salary, it's worth considering how confident you are that you're training for a career that will even exist in say 10 or 15 years. If you're investing years of your life into a future career it's important to do that with quite a high level of certainty about the return of that.
A lot of my decision making these days is trying to model out a safe route through uncertainty. A few years ago I felt like I could plan and was able to move towards the life I wanted. Now I feel like I'm just trying avoid getting my legs blown off as I walk through the minefield.
what is physically happening is that the body's mast cells release neurotransmitters like histamine and serotonin, causing inflammation (so the immune system can fight some things off) leading to pain, and also fatigue (to encourage you to stay safe at home in the cave conserving energy, or some such story like that -- don't trust any specific just-so story though, especially this one).
the interesting question is what all the other things are that stress you out. i've found dietary triggers are what got me and a lot of my friends; there are some allergy cases out there, and a few friends with long COVID, which is one particularly nasty self-sustaining form. a family member had a terrible decade long episode triggered by contact dermatitis with poison oak. and generally speaking, heat and humidity are stressors too, as are pressure changes (you've heard tell of the little old lady who can tell a storm is coming because of an arthritis flare).
I get it, but honestly, why? I have seen a few times someone being let go or about to and successfully negotiated out of it - but that person was always gone within a year anyway. The relationship is permanently damaged by that point, the employer cannot trust you're just buying time to get a new role and jump ship, and the employee will always have their guard up.
A workplace can have good work and great coworkers, but have truly awful people in positions of power over you. Which you may not realize until you're suddenly at risk.
I didn't get any mania, but the bottle of pills had Delusions of Grandeur listed as one of the side effects, which my partner would always point out whenever I had an idea she didn't like.
You should visit this website, from a nonprofit funded by the Department of Health and Human Services, and maybe show your clinician the linked clinician guide (sift through it yourself, to see how many independent subsystems you have symptoms in).
So please be careful after you're off the corticosteroids to not restart the things that might've contributed. Good luck, autoimmune disorders are hell.
I've been through similar burnout phases with strange rebounds. There's a term called new leaf fallacy where we think that life will magically get better when we do the thing, so that any new thing provides a (false) sense of having a breakthrough. Then reality sets in and we slip back down to normal or even a new low.
I highly recommend thinking about finding optimal health as reality shifting. Which means that a holistic approach of making lifestyle changes can see real results that cause and effect might miss. So self-help is a good starting point, but there's also gut health and epigenetics.
Eating a can of mushrooms a day as part of a 2 to 4 egg omelet helped me tremendously. Mushrooms are high in fiber and have trace nutrients largely missing from our modern diet, so that they balance hormones and probably neurotransmitters. Cholesterol and saturated fat are also good for nerves and the brain. Note that they've been given a bad name due to red meat, which has a clogging effect on arteries for different reasons (especially beef fat). Humans also have a different sugar on our cells than other animals like chimpanzees (each protecting us from diseases that the other does not), so that when we eat meat or dairy, we try to use it and can't, which causes inflammation. Which also has a genetic component, since I'm able to eat large quantities of dairy but not meat, while other people find the opposite to be agreeable.
I also believe that I got a copper deficiency from taking zinc every day for the gym, without knowing that it blocks copper absorption in the intestines for 3 days. That resulted in unexpected illness and a couple of really bad injuries starting in 2024 and lasting for 2 years until I finally isolated the root cause(s). I heard an expert on NPR I think (can't remember her name), but she said that taking vitamins and minerals to end deficiencies is hugely beneficial, but that taking doses beyond that has basically no effect or can do harm. That's why the supplement industry might be perceived as snake oil, because it works for some but not others.
Epigenetics is really about faking it till you make it. If your intuition tells you that something that used to work in your body no longer does, you can retrace your steps to find triggers. Then do the opposite of them long enough to flip the switches back. For a lot of people, I think stress takes such a toll that we keep going until our body makes the decision for us and pulls the plug. So the obvious answer is to de-stress, which is hard to do in the workaday world that demands full productivity just to tread water when nobody shares. What the universe is really asking of us there is to de-stress anyway and let the cards fall where they may. In my experience, the things I was holding on to had little to no value anyway (they were attachments separating me from myself).
I only mention it because those outlier insights have a lot to offer. It's not so much about doing more of something, but looking at the things we're not doing and devoting energy to them.
Hope this helps someone.
When you take cortisone, your body reduces or stops producing cortisol. So if you want to get off the drug, you need to heavily taper it over a long period of time. When I was on it over 20 years ago and high doses, I would slowly go down to 20mg daily, watching any symptoms, and eventually do 20mg every other day and continue to lower from there.
Cortisone dependence is a real thing unfortunately, and it took me forever to get off it.
Due to some nasty, persistent chest congestion a couple of years ago, I took a course of prednisone.
Holy shit did my fingers ever move on the guitar fingerboard without any warmup.
Attitude is everything in tough situations and your positivity is inspiring; thanks for the post. Cheers
Now there are at least 100s if not 1000s of people out there who "heal" all kinds of health issues, most of them "incurable", by reducing their A intake.
Best thing I ever did.